First of all, having the internet is the best thing ever! But it's also the worst thing ever. Right now though, I'd say it's more so the best thing ever. Just.... hopefully in the future I won't cling to it like I am doing now!
I just moved into my piso. And I am like, 110% intimidated. There are currently 4 other people in this apartment right now, all native Spaniards, all speaking at the same time, and yet, all still understanding each other. When I try to talk to them, I stumble over my words because I am nervous. I didn't eat with them. I have nothing to eat. No groceries yet, only the shelf-stable bread, digestives, and peanuts that I picked up earlier this week. Oh yeah, and I also have some fruit that isn't ripe yet. (This is what happens when you go to a fruiteria, and aren't allowed to touch the fruit.)
I've been hiding tonight! (Well, that and unpacking my suitcases --all done!) But I didn't come here to hide!
I'm just going to try to go to bed tonight, and let the newness of this thing wear off. And hopefully, in the morning, I will encounter one roommate at a time, and I'll actually be able to speak to them.
I'll be the first to remind you that a few short days ago, the fact that I had this piso was cause for much excitement and celebration. And, it still is. But it's also a huge step. I've never really "moved out" in the US (aside from college housing), and here I am, living on my own in Spain. Do I have cause to feel nervous and intimidated?
This is most definitely a "what the crap am I doing here?" moment!
Pray that tomorrow gives me purpose!
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